write

I was talking to the editor of a local magazine based in Melbourne last night. I told him I am a film critic back in Hong Kong. He asked, "So, are you still writing?"

To which I replied, "I try to, when I have time."

He said, "ah, that sounds a bit sad."

me, "eh?"

Him, "I am a writer, I have to write everyday!"

His very determination and passion inspired me.

Lovely old man with a straw hat...

It's good when you talk to people who can remind you how life should be like.

野餐

假如在這麼忙我又這麼懶的當下有甚麼事值得花點時間一記，那就是昨晚意大利同事見我不大高興，請我跟他的法越女朋友，還有其他四個法國朋友一敘，到 south bank 公園野餐。就在河邊孔夫子像一旁的草坪上。

他說：他們會準備食物，不過天知道那會否成事！他們靠不住...（almost like a compliment）

跟四個法國人初次見面，但不用堆起笑容說 nice to meet you ，也不用接收高八度的假熱情，不用聽滔滔不絕的個人表演，然後陪笑，也不用絞盡腦汁去想「他們覺得幽默」的話...

而且都很純真，在他們身上看不到我特受不了的 aggressiveness, 也不像是 opportunistic 的人。我想我是說多了，不過在草坪上，暗暗的歡喜。

How They Drink Coffee

After a great meal at Vapiano (my favourite lunch place - not that i can afford it every day though) mr italiano and I went back to office and amused ourselves by laughing at this man in the same elevator with us:

man: this morning I was so excited to try on the new coffee machine. But there is no milk in the fridge!

as soon as we walked out from the elevator, he asked me, "Did you hear what he said?"

And we both burst out at the same time, "why is that a problem!?"

"I am Immortality and also death"

This morning I decided to take a break from what I have been occupying myself with and to take the pleasure of immersing into a story by Borges.

It was the first story from The Aleph, namely "The Immortal" (which plays with Giambattista's argument that Homer is a symbolic character, and which goes on to suggest that Homer might be an immortal and thus might be any or every poet we ever know of). I had read Borges works (short stories, essays, parables) in a collection volume before and when I started reading "The Immortal", I remember very well how the princess receives the six volumes of Iliad from a mysterious book dealer. I was sure that I've read it before.

But the story intrigued me the same and I couldn't remember, even vaguely, what happens afterwards. I decided to read on. Soon I was no longer sure whether I really read it before. Some of the parts seem very familiar. Some of them don't ring a bell. I was totally confused. But the more I am confused, the more I am intrigued.

It was until I came across the following that I realized I have certainly read it before. I remember these quotations crystal clear:

"There is nothing very remarkable about being immortal; with the exception of mankind, all creatures are immortal, for they know nothing of death. What is divine, terrible, and incomprehensible is to know oneself immortal."

"In my view, the Wheel conceived by certain religions in Hindustan is much more plausible; on that Wheel, which has neither end nor beginning, each life is the effect of the previous life and engenderer of the next, yet not one life determines the whole... They knew that over an infinitely long span of time, all things happen to all men. As reward for his past and future virtues, every man merited every kindness - yet also every betrayal, as reward for his past and future iniquities. Much as the way in games of chance, heads and tails tend to even out, so cleverness and dullness cancel and correct each other." (such can also supplement my argument against the level of inspiration in The Tree of Life)

"Viewed in that way, all our acts are just, though also unimportant. There are no spiritual or intellectual merits. Homer composed the Odyssey; given infinite time, with infinite circumstances and changes, it is impossible that the Odyssey should not be composed at least once. No one is someone; a single immortal men is all men. Like Cornelius Agrippa, I am god, hero, philosopher, demon, and world - which is a long-winded way of saying that I am not."

But what do I know? Perhaps this is exactly a spell that Borges had cast so the reader believes he has read the story before. And perhaps he did, in his previous life, another life, from another writer, who might well be the same person. Or perhaps, he is one who had written it in the first place.

I do believe there is magic in Borges's works.

What is Time? - The Tree Of Life

While I was watching The Tree of Life I was deeply touched and in a few scenes I was even in tears - without quite knowing why. Something addresses to my deep feelings, and I am happy to conclude it as a response to the spell of the cosmic visuals and the lyrical “stream of consciousness” style together with the exceptional use of (classical) music. I also enjoy very much the "reaching up" motif (lots of stairs, shot in low angle; Brad Pitt is always climbing up or looking up) which resonates to a religious sensibility that is very common in medieval art.

I very much appreciate how Malick managed to extract the extraordinary out of the ordinary (much as in The Thin Red Line). He placed the history of this ordinary family in a context that is much larger than the time and place it belongs too; that is, in the context of the history of mankind (or some may like to call it "evolution"); of the very existence of not just men but essentially, "beings". Which leads to the realization of how ignorant men are about the meaning of their (our) own existence. I am also moved by the father-son relationship which can probably also be read as a metaphor of god-men relationship.

However, there is a part in my mind that resists this film. For me, it works on an emotional level rather than an intellectual level. It doesn’t present the sharp observation and revelation, nor the complexity and density as in 2001: A Space Odyssey (that it is constantly compared to, if not related to), in which every single image carries a meaning and is inter-connected with one and other, and in which the juxtaposition of the images (i.e. the editing) is an important means of bringing about true PHILOSOPHICAL meditation and DISCUSSION on evolution. There is little doubt that the 3 parts of The Tree of Life (beginning of time-the family-end of time) are to convey a meditation of the history of time and of mankind, but there is no strong connection among them and the images (though grandeur and cosmic and absolutely captivating) seem arbitrary. I was about to compare them to imageries in a poem - sometimes we do not ask for rationality and logic in a poem. But then, great poems do carry rich meanings through imageries and the CONNECTION of them. The fact that The Tree of Life is structured like a poem does not necessarily mean that it is sublime.

Exactly what Sean Penn is troubled by - father and son relationship suggested in the flashbacks, or the coldness in modernity suggested in contemporary setting, or both? One can easily say both, as it is quite obvious. We can certainly FEEL it but I do not see we are allowed room to THINK ABOUT IT. The transition to the last part - the end of time (is there really an end - and beginning - of time, if time is but an illusion?) or the Apocalypse or whatever you wish to call it, is quite awkward, and for me, the vision is too simple and predictable, if not harmonious, that looks more like a wishful "ending" than a conclusion after deep thought. (And come to think of it, where are Brad Pitt's Mom and Dad, and their Mom and Dad, and their Mom and Dad, and where are Sean Penn’ s kids, and their kids, and their kids…? Note I am already very lenient, I am not even asking why their images are fixed at different ages. What's the logic? OK, it is either just arbitrary or their images are fixed at their most troubled moment, or even at how they remained in say Sean Penn's mind - but sorry, do all these really make sense? Don't get me wrong, I would not ask such a question if the last part was portrayed as a sort of "internal reality"; which it wasn't.)

Perhaps my ultimate problem with The Tree of Life is that I DO NOT believe there is a beginning and an end of TIME (if not that I am not a religious person). TIME remains a concept that is elusive and enigmatic and unapproachable, if not illusionary as suggested by Borges. To contain TIME and to think that it is containable is a denial of the complexity and mystery of existence. What's great about 2001 is that it doesn't even attempt to suggest a beginning of time - it only depicts the dawn of men; and there is absolutely no end (and no ending).

Having said all that, I am still keen to watch the film again and re-think about it-if I could.

夜露沾衣

我住的地方，跟澳洲大部份地方一樣，一天到晚鳥鳴不絕，清晨與黃昏尤烈。傍晚到天台沉思，晚霞腥紅，林蔭間屋簷陣列，鳥聲依依，不覺想起陶淵明的詩。遺憾的是沒有炊煙，自然也無有米飯之香。

等待被淘汰

昨晚吃飯一檯六人。有人提到某公司招聘，cover letter 以一百四十字（或者是 140 characters ，也就是 twitter 的字限，不記得了）為限。大家興高采列討論，有人提出可以填上自己網頁的連結之類。我說這不是 cheating 嗎？其餘五人異口同聲說當然不，這個世代就是要有策略呀（這叫策略？），要懂得吸引人去看你的東西呀。然後有人說到網絡有些人如何故作驚人語來吸引別人看他的東西、推高網站流量等等，覺得這種做法很聰明云云。我真是 don't give a shit about it 。說到底還是無料到才需要整古做怪吧。在這個充滿網路垃圾或垃圾讀者的年代，流量又代表甚麼？（當然很多人還是很崇拜流量的）

若是職位要求熟知 social media 或 social media marketing 的運作，用自己的連結來做 cover letter 也勉強說得過去，不過我就極不欣賞這種小聰明。我寧願選一個寫足一千四百字（當然條件是寫得好）的人。

我這種落伍的人，還是等待被淘汰吧，嘿。